In God We Trust CoinComment: I saw a message from Joyce Meyer on TV that was so powerful. I thank God for her and her teachings. She is a powerful voice for Jesus. The Lord has put it on me to share some of my story and Joyce has inspired me to do it as well. As a child of 9 she was raped over and over by her father for years. If she can tell her story I will tell some of mine. I don’t like to talk about my story, but the Lord has put it on me to tell it. After my visit to Tutwiler in January the Lord showed me there was going to come a time to share my story. It is the right time. I hope this message blesses you.

Why do bad things happen to good people? Why do children die? Why do we have to feel pain? Why do children suffer sexual abuse? Questions we often ask but don’t usually get answers for. To think about these things can be overwhelming. Why do only some people get healed while others die? Why doesn’t He get you out of this prison? God may not always answer our questions Job 42:1-3.

Some of you were sexually molested (my pit) growing up. Some were raped. Others suffered other forms of pain and hurt. Why God? Why didn’t God get you out of that situation? Why doesn’t He get us out of all bad situations? For decades, most of my life I asked, why God?

Revelations 12:11 And they overcame him (the enemy) by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony.

Growing up I never understood why God allowed bad things to happen in my life. I know it wasn’t God that caused the bad things. That was satan, all along. You see, my father killed my mother (Geraldine Carroll Kidd) when I was 11 (my pit). My little brother Randy (7 was in bed with mother when daddy killed her. My two sisters Sharlene (13) and Sharon (15) saw him shoot her. I was asleep in another room with my little sister Shonda (5) when she was shot. I awoke and went in her room only to see her with a bullet hole in her forehead and dead (my pit). I didn’t understand. How could anyone, let alone a child understand this? It has affected us, all of our lives. Two years after mother died, Randy died. The Lord says He won’t put more on you than you can stand Mother’s death was traumatic for all of us. However, it was so hard on Randy being in bed with mother when she was killed. As far as I’m concerned now, the Lord had mercy on Randy and took him to spend eternity with Him where he is safe, loved and happy. Shonda,my little sister died a sudden death this past September and is with Jesus. Shonda was so young when mother died. She really didn’t have memories of her own. She missed mother her entire life. All of us kids did. The loss left a hole in us (my pit). We not only lost our mother but also our father, all at the same time (my pit). I have only talked about this with a handful of people in my whole life. My sisters don’t talk about it. The Lord has put it on me to tell it, to get it out of me. The Lord says he will turn what was meant for your harm into something good. I pray this message will help someone, glorify God and that something good comes of it.

Although I had to go through difficult situations, beginning at a young age, God did give me strength to get through it. Yes, going through, made me strong. Going through and other life experiences, has created something in me the Lord is now using to help others. He showed this to me when He was dealing with me about ministering at Tutwiler Prison. If I had not gone through all those trials of life, I am sure I would not be as strong as I am today and helping others. It is the power of Christ in me that makes me strong. It is His mercy that saved me. His mercy has made me whole.

We have real pain and suffering in this life. It brings to mind the story of Job in the Bible. He had terrible loss in his life. He lost all his children, his health and his possessions. He didn’t understand. He didn’t know why all these bad things happened to him. He was a good man. He had relationship with God. He heard from God. He didn’t understand the why of all the loss and suffering. Why God? Going through all these trials drew Job closer to God. He didn’t run from God, he ran to Him. What he went through brought him to know God in a much closer personal way than before the trials. Job 42:5 I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear; but now mine eye seeth thee.

I spent years only speaking about God and not really knowing Him. My childhood was bad. I didn’t understand. It messed a lot of me up on the inside. There were broken places in me. It has taken me literally my entire adult life to come to terms with it. Like Job, I now know Him. My eye seeth thee Lord. Thank you Jesus. With Jesus, I am free from my childhood, the spirit of fear and my past. Whom the son sets free is free indeed.

Although you may have gone through bad experiences, it doesn’t mean you have to spend the rest of your life with the burden of them hanging all over you. They have had power over you for too long. Jesus already bore all our sorrows, hurts, pain and grief on the cross for all our pits, regardless how deep they are. Isaiah 53:4-5, Surely he hath borne our grief’s …, But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities, the chastisement of our peace was upon him and with his stripes we are healed.

Let God lift you out of your pit with the mighty right hand of His righteousness. You can get free from all your hurt, addictions, brokenness and loss if you will give your life to Jesus. Seek Him and His love and peace. Ask Jesus to heal you. Go from your pit to His power.

For those of you that have lost someone, been abused, addicted to drugs or whatever your pain is, don’t spend your life trying to figure it out. If you just don’t understand why, give it to God. For the most part you won’t get the answers you are looking for. From the age of 11 to the age of 58 I was trying to get those questions answered. I had spent my entire adult life running from God. It wasn’t until I ran to God that I got any peace within myself. From the age of 58 to now (64) I have been running towards God. I’ve had a hunger to learn all I can about God’s word, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I have that inward peace inside me now, the peace that only God can give you. He gave it to me and He can give it to you. He will change you on the inside. When trouble comes I will still have that inward peace.

Regardless of what life throws at me, what satan tries to do to me, I will have God’s peace on the inside of me. No one can take it from me. I don’t just speak about God, I know Him personally. I know of His power. With Christ in me, I have His power inside me. From my pit to His power, I praise Jesus.

The Lord is reaching out to all of you that are broken, addicted, wounded on the inside, cracked and bruised. Take Him to that place where your pain is. He will heal you there. He will take all the pain away, wash you white as snow. It doesn’t matter where you’ve been. He will heal your brokenness wherever you have pain. Give it to Him.

He has a purpose for each of us. We are to live our life as an example of Jesus. Jesus was our example on earth. That is how we are to strive to live. We must show others our light and teach others about Jesus, in hope they will seek Him. We won’t always have the answers to our questions. When you just don’t understand, run to God. Trust in Him to comfort you. He loves you and it is not too late. His grace and mercy are for everyone who will seek it. His grace and mercy are here for you now. Ask Him to come into your life. Ask Him for emotional healing, healing from your pain, sickness, addiction and rejection. Whatever it is He can heal you. Ask Him to come into your heart.

If any of you want prayer or know of someone in need of prayer, please contact me. I will pray for you. If you have a testimony to share, send it. Send anonymously if you don’t want to identify yourself. God Bless. Heal the broken-hearted, bind up all their wounds.

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