Shout It Out

Zachary Ian Hawkins 40th Birthday

5 Feb 1980-2 July 2015

Today would be Zack’s 40th birthday had he lived. Brain cancer took its toll on Zack’s life. Zachary died almost 5 years ago, but I remember that he lived 35 years. The last 10 years he followed Jesus. The Lord was changing and transforming him.

My heart is full of good memories. I still see his smiling face as a baby, a child and as a man. I often remember his coming through my front door calling, Mama. I remember my first day with him and my first day without him. I thought I would spend all of my life with him and my daughter Rachel, but now I realize he spent all of his life with me instead. How grateful I am to the Lord for allowing me to have Rachel with me, steady as a rock.

Though life goes on without Zack, it’s not the same. There’s an empty place at the table, on the couch and at church. Every day the empty space is always there, during Christmas and Thanksgiving and especially his birthday, as I remember the day of his birth.

The Lord has healed my broken heart and bound up my wounds from his death. Although healed from so much by the Lord, I can never forget the loss. The separation won’t let you forget. No passage of time will change that. I would rather endure me outliving him than not having him in my life at all. It is all worth it to have had Zack as my son, through the good and the bad. Hopefully, I will walk the rest of my journey with Rachel by my side and in my heart and carrying Zack close in my heart. The Lord is always with me.

So I keep on loving Zack. I will see him again in heaven. That brings me much joy and I smile when I think about it. I know he is in peace and in good hands with Jesus. I often thank God for taking care of Zack for me.

Our Heavenly Father sent His Angels for Zack. As his father and I sat by his bedside the angels carried Zack to Jesus, and one day He will send them for you and me. He will reach down with His mighty hand and call us home to Him. We may not get a warning, or know where or when. Sometimes it happens very suddenly. Death is inevitable unless Jesus comes back to get His church in the Rapture.

I pray that you will ready yourselves for meeting Jesus. Only those who have accepted Jesus as their Lord and Savior will be in heaven. I am so grateful Zack had accepted Jesus. We will be reunited and I want you to be there too.

God bless. Heal the brokenhearted, bind up all their wounds.